Moment like this...
I feel guilty.
I feel useless.
I feel i want to fly and go back there ASAP.
I want to stay at home.
I want to be close to her.
I want to take care of her.
I want to cook for her, clean for her.
There's a lot of things I wish I could do..but I couldn't.
Just because I am far away from her, and it's impossible for me to go back so often.
I wish.
I am scared.
I am afraid.
She's my key to Jannah.
She's the reason I am alive & here in this world.
When she get sick, I can't be near her.
I can't examine her.
I can't give her medication.
I can't take care of her.
The fact that I am busy taking care, give medications & treatment to someone else's mother of father, is frustrating. Really frustrating.
How could I treat someone else's mother, while I left my mother alone, sick at home and need someone else to bring her to seek treatment?
Am I useless?
I feel hopeless.
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